For me, this week will really challenge my perception of prayer; both in its role in my personal relationship with God and also how I view global prayer. Prayer of the "Church". Prayer of God's people.
There have been times where I have landed on both ends of the spectrum. I have identified with the notion that prayer is futile, as God already knows my thoughts and desires. Why pray when God already knows the plans of this world? I am simply wasting my time. Can I really change God's mind?
And I have viewed prayer as an obligation. A responsibility. Where I have felt guilty if I dont pray and sometimes, I even felt guilty when I do pray. I have been that person that starts prayer off, "Hey God, its me Jyndia... forgive me for that one time when I..." We've all been there.
I am looking forward to this event, but also find myself extremely anxious. I am anxious because I know in my heart if I embrace this event, God will change me. And thats exciting, but scary. I know if I come before God with an authentic heart, he will change me. He has promised to do as much. And I believe in his promises!
this video says it all
1 comment:
I was nodding with almost everything you said. I've struggled with the same things in prayer. I think sometimes I get so caught up in not knowing exactly how to eloquently say what I want to say that I jsut don't do it all together. It's a process, I think.
Who knows :)
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